what's going on with roro?

for the few of you who don't know there was a knock at the door of the gillinghams place wednesday evening. i didn't want to get up, for i had just sat down to eat dinner, but i did, only to find a matthew champ on my doorstep. he came to visit for the weekend. it seems that i was the only one who didn't know about it. it was definitly a nice surprise. so, with the exception of thursday i got to hang out with him and his family. i like him, he's a good boyfriend. which gets me to thinking, not many of you know what is up with us. so, i'll let ya'll know. we are good. this long distance thing is definitly hard, but it's going well. we obviously don't see eachother much, but we talk on the phone quite a bit. he's busy with school and i'm busy hanging out with hannah and jeremiah gillingham. i am also trying to spend more and more time with God, praying, reading the bible and studying. which leads me to today. this morning i was checking friends blogs and reading e-mails and i got super sad and lonely for a bit. back home in seattle there are 3 friends of mine at the corps having babies real soon. joel and kim are getting married and getting all the preperations done for that. i found not not even a week ago that my younger sister, cera, is pregnant as well. she's due in june or july. this is a shock. but we're happy she's keeping the baby. so i'm gonna be an auntie real soon. oh, and my friend loreen, some of you may have met her, has been accepted for officers training in the fall. as you can tell there is a major change and growth going on back home in seattle with my friends and family. i have never felt so distant from them in my life. and so much of me really wants to be there to be apart of it all and observe this 'thing', this change, these joyous times. so, i got really sad and was questioning God again on why i am here in london. i felt dry, alone, barren. some tears came, but not many. soon after all this ian came home from a field trip with his son., derek. and we started talking about israel and the jewish people and such things. and i finally told him when it was when God called me to london, to live with the gillinghams. it was while i was in intercession for israel this summer in b'ham. ian gave me some good words and encouragement. he has reccomended a few books i read about israel ad it's history and God's heart for israel and such things. i felt i was being fed. i was being watered. God was answering my prayer. so, i feel a bit better. i know that God has called this time to dive into the word more and to grow an intimacy with Him. i am excited about this and still am wandering what this looks like. i'm slowly growing as God is slowly breaking/softening/molding/conforming my heart. i miss you all. and i don't pray for you as i should be, so today in my ration time i will pray for each and every one of you. and matthew and myself would greatly appreciate your prayers for our relationship.